Dream

i just woke up from a nap, and a very strage dream.

i fell asleep listening to my itunes, so it was one of those dreams where things happening in real life affect your dreams.

i was in a room with about 7 or 8 people, all of them my friends, and they found a large puzzle.

i put my headphones in and began to work on the puzzle, the song playing on my ipod was "first day of my life" by bright eyes.

i was working on the puzzle with my friends, and about a minute into the puzzle, i took over, and i wouldn't let anyone else touch it or help me out with the puzzle.

i worked for a while, the song playing the entire time, and i ended up finishing it, all except one little section of it.

i began to cry, and no matter how hard i tried i couldn't finish the puzzle.

i asked my friends for help, and they said something, but i couldn't hear them so i pulled out my earbuds, but the music was still the same volume, and they were telling me something, but i still couldn't hear it.

i began to run around the table, and frantically attempt to finish the puzzle and i was crying.

after i woke up, i looked at my itunes and hit the back button a few times til i found the song.

it was about the third or fourth song back.

i know this dream has a meaning, but its very blurry.

im confused.

Search

stop.

what's happening?

take a moment, take it in.

the solemn, lonely silence that surrounds you. where did it come from?

just moments ago so much was happening.

but now...

silence.

shh.

what happened to the birds in the air? where have they gone?
the laughter that made my day, the smile, the warmth, where is it?

is it lost?
if it is, i would be more than happy to help find it.
i'm looking for it so hard, but have yet to find anything.

it's like trying to solve a puzzle, when you don't have all of the peices.

a large, empty space that makes it look damaged, ugly, and incomplete.

i'm looking,

i'm searching.

i'm working,
for an answer.

an answer that may never come,
either way, i'm still going to look for it until i find it.

but what if i never find it?

i'll just have to wait,
i'll just have to be patient until i do find it.

and hopefully, it will be exactly what i am looking for.