Ben

there is so much to say. so much i did yesterday.

i didn't write yesterday, because i was too busy having the time of my life.

last night, i went camping with a big group of people, and i feel like i got closer to all of them.
i was hesitant to go at first.

thursday i was invited to go during a study session.

in my mind, i thought, im not sure if i want to go, but i really want to get to know more people.
so i went, and i dont regret it.

i really broke out of my shell last night, it was awesome and i feel way more comfortable around them all now, i can finally be myself.

this sentence is dedicated to jared mattson, because he is the on who invited me to go.
this sentence is dedicated to madi, just because shes awesome.
this sentence is dedicated to josh, because he was the person i knew the most when we went
this sentence is dedicated to merideth, because she and i had so much fun, and got to be better friends last night when we got lost.
this sentence is dedicated to rachel, because she is the nicest and coolest person that was there for sure. :)

so to start off my night we all met in the ped mall, to work out our rides. ali ended up riding with me, but then we stopped at wal mart. mickey, phil, and ali left us, because they had important things they needed to to before today.

so meredith rode the rest of the way with me.
we ended up being seperated from the group, so we had to find the campsite by ourselves.
we found a house, that looked like a ufo, awesome, and then we realized we were going the wrong way and turned around. we got on the road that we were supposed to be on, but we couldn't find the road to take us to the campsite.
we found this church.

it had the perfect name, suck creek baptist church.

what did we do?

well, there was a sign, with rearrangabale letters.

we rearranged those letters so hard, and we made it say something extremely hilarious.

so we find the campsite finally and the park ranger says that the campsite is closed for the night.
we tell our friends, and the park ranger kicked them out, and jakeh called his stepdad who owns land on the river, and we went and just camped out there on the river.

we had a bonfire, made smores, talked, played guitar, and just hung out and looked at the stars.

at 5:30, i drove rachel and ben back to campus because they had to be back because campus chior and singers were going on tour this week.

i really wanted to watch the sunrise, but we got back too early.

on a different note, i want to express one of my fears.
the fear of the friend zone.

i feel like im slowly falling into the friend zone with rachel.
i'm not even sure if she likes me.

but it kind of seems like she is beginning to see me as someone who will be just a friend.
i really just want to get my emotions out there.
i really enjoy talking to her, and i love spending time with her, and getting to know her, but up until last night i was still not able to be myself, but last night i was myself, and from now on, around her, i can be myself, because im comfortable hanging out with everyone around her now.

she is so pretty, and her voice is amazing. she is such a nice person, i'm just extremely scared of the friend zone, because i've been in it all my life, and never been able to get out of it.
theres so much more i could write about this, but i'm not going to say them just yet.

i hope i don't end up getting stuck there again.

i love lee, and i love my friends at lee.

:)