Realization

normal day.

not.

amazing day.

i woke up, first class of the day i didn't have because it is gateway and we don't have that on fridays. so i went straight to psychology, i love that class, it is so big, i love big classes.

my roommate just told me in one of his rambling rants that he is scared that the cafeteria food at lee is going to come alive one day and try to eat him, and that he wants buttered toast right now.

random thought.

anyways, i finished my classes and ate lunch with some really cool people, from ohio, seattle, and im not sure where one is from, but they are really cool, and i'm going to eventually go to cincinnati with one of the girls from ohio.
they're really fun nice people and i love them.

i went back to my room and had nothing to do for a few hours, so i got on my piano and just played, i didn't play a song, i just played, nonstop for an hour or two, just free flowing music. and it was great. i expressed myself through song, even though it didnt have words, i felt i got out what i needed to get out.

after that, i started to talk to one of my very good friends from atlanta. she was babysitting some kids, and one had an old lady name but was 3.

mavis.

that was her name.
gross.

it makes me think of a really old woman.

anyways, her and i suffer from one of the worst things ever.

it is called doubt.

i hate it, i think the problem is that we have way too much time to think, and when we think, we think about the worst case scenarios first, and then we get focused on those so much that we just tell ourselves that there is no hope for the good, and we end up worrying about it.

i myself need to listen to the advice that i am about to give you.

when you think about things, dont let the worst case scenario take up your focus. always know that the worst case scenario is probably not what will happen, and then start thinking about good things. instead of focusing on negative things that might happen, focus on the positive things that may happen or have already happened.

there is a bible verse somewhere, i think it is in Phillipians, but it says, do not be anxious about anything, instead look to God and pray about everything.

if we realize that God is in control, and then realize that He knows what is best for us, then we wont have to worry about anything because everything is going to work out to His will.

so then it got to be 6 o clock, and fun time.

i went to chattanooga with a group of friends, and ate at a place called big river grille, and it was so good, then afterwords we walked around downtown chattanooga and just took pictures and had fun and just talked and had a great time, we got ice cream and just had a buttload of fun. i went with 2 of my best friends, and this girl that i really really like.
she is super cool, but i always freeze up around her whenever we talk, and so tonight, bringing my friends along, i really think that helped me to loosen up and i think that now i will be able to not be so tense around her.

she is very very pretty and has an amazing voice, and hopefully if its God's will, something more will come out of it, but for right now i'm going to take it slow, and just see where it goes. get to know her a little more, and just be her friend, be cool, and have fun.

shes pretty awesome.

later guys. :)