Wait

it is intricate.

it is beautiful.

it is incredibly unique.

i attempt to put everything together, yet every single time i think i have found the right piece i just turn it over and find out that it wasn't what i expected.

it has no picture to go by, it is only something in my mind i can imagine. but when i try to imagine what it looks like, it does not do it justice.

it is like i already know what it will look like, yet i don't have a clue what it will look like.

whenever my fingers slide across the table, searching for a new piece, i go on a journey. a new insane adventure and i don't know what kind of situation i will get into, and i love every minute of it.

it frustrates me, and i feel like i can't do it sometimes, but i still stick with it. i mean, with the knowledge of how incredibly breathtaking it will look on the day when it is finally finished, of how when all of the pieces come together to make an image of something so indescribably great, of how unfathomable it will be when i stand back and take a look at the finished project, how can i give up when i am expecting something so amazing.

i know i won't be disappointed.

i know.

but when people see it, they say "thats not working, its too hard, you will never complete it." i just ignore them.
it helps to keep your mind focused. even those who are enthusiasts may say, "this will never work, it will never become the beautiful picture you are expecting." i take into account what they are saying, but i still press on toward the goal, my will cannot be broken because the end result is so totally worth it that nothing could stop me now.

but when i just get stuck in a rut, when i have no other options but to take a break, i do just that.

i wait.

when i cannot figure out which two pieces go together,

i wait.

when i forget about what the grand finale' will look like,

i wait.

when people come up to me and attempt to change my mind, or tell me it can never be done,

i wait.

but i don't really want to wait, because i really am looking forward to the completion.

i dont want to wait because i fear that when i come back to finish it, it will be gone.

yet,

i wait because something good will come of this.

i wait because i feel i will be letting someone down if i dont finish it.

i wait,

because it IS WORTH IT,

i wait.

and i continue waiting as long as it takes, until it finally comes together in a beautiful arrangement of shapes, colors, tears, joy, love, happiness and laughter.

because,

it is worth it.



-Torrey Barnett