Inadequacy

this entire week has seemed very blah.

not just to me, but many of my friends have expressed laments to me about this week.

i think we are just all to that point in the semester where we are just all homesick and everyone is getting exhausted with everything they are having to do and all the extracurricular activities they participate in.

i don't feel homesick or anything, i just think it makes me feel inadequate when people start talking about how much they miss their old friends from home.

but i need to remember, not everyone lives 45 minutes away from home.

but i am human, so i do feel like i'm not up to par whenever people talk about it. but there is nothing i can do about it.

i think thats mostly the reason why the week has been bad for me, but everyone has different, yet legitimate reasons.

after talking with people tonight about this week, and how they feel about it, and what it has been like to them i just felt like something about it needed to be addressed.

so to round out the week, i decided to go to chilhowee with some really good friends and just look at the stars. i love stargazing.

i dont understand how people don't believe that there is a God after looking at the incredibly complex beauty of literally every single thing around them. i don't think some people realize just how big God actually is.

i just stared at the sky in awe of the wonder and majesty of God and just thought about how great He is and how his love for us is so insanely incomprehensible.

the overall mood of the week has been overshadowed by tonight, and everything tonight made me realize how small i was, and how small my problems were, and how small everyone else's problems were. God can handle anything, so...

to those of you who feel inadequate...
you are more than satisfactory in His eyes

to those of you who feel unloved...
He has a love for you that is greater than anyone else's love for anything

to those of you who feel helpless...
He is a rock and foundation to help you through whatever the problem

to those of you who feel homesick...
He longs for you to make your home in his presence

to those of you who miss someone...
He will provide you the strength and will to endure until you see them again

to those of you who just don't understand...
He gives a peace that surpasses all understanding

to all of my friends...
just stick it out, things are going to get rough, and even though this is everyone's first little rough patch, if you just stick with it everything will be worth it. every friendship you make, every conversation you have, all of your time here will all eventually make sense, you just have to stick with it, be COMPLETELY honest with one another and don't keep your feelings a secret. don't give up on each other, don't give up on me, and don't give up on God. the reward for sticking with it through good times and bad times will be so indescribably worth it, so just keep focused on God, and keep your eyes on the goal.

everything will be okay.

just stick with it.

i love all of you, and i value each and every one of your friendships.
this is for you guys.

:)